I showed m parents my test paper…n they were stumped…..n u can c that they are worried…..i tried my best to hold back my tears…..they didn’t say anything…nothing at all….there was juz a moment of weird silence….

I knew I had disappoint them….in fact I have disappoint myself….
How have I become thiz dumb……I cant say that I didn’t study….i did…I guess I was juz not clear with the acquired knowledge…..
Oh well…boo hoo for me..

I’m starting to feel this queasy feeling in my tummy……yes…the first sign of fear have strike…..i’m scared alright…..extremely….there are juz so many things in my stupid head…..

Naseer has always thought that I was strong….but he was kindda taken a back when he realized I was breaking inside….

We hardly talk….but recently…he has taken the effort to call me to c how I m doing……I’m kind of heartened by his gestures….
Though he has his own set of problems…..he was mindful of mine….

He was shock….n speechless when I told him abt my ground breaking results……the silence was pretty awkward……he gave me quite a fair bit of nagging abt how I have been complacent ….and have taken things easy and blabla….u noe…things I nid to hear…but dun want to hear……….

I told him that I was losing faith in myself….but he kept reminding me to pray……then he said…. ‘fad, sometimes you nid to fail to succeed …..u have failed..n now u nid to succeed…for urself….for ur family….for ur future….I noe ur upset now and feeling stupid…u have the right to feel that way now but u’ll b a loser if u continue thinking that way…..to me u are no loser…..u r a fighter n have always been a fighter…u always fight for whatever u believe in….i’m here to give u support when u nid it’

Hee……I was touched ..very touched…for a man of few words…..his encouragement meant a lot…… his comments got me thinking….well got myself upset over many other things also……

So ppl…I will b uncontactable for some time….. hee..nolar….u can sms me but the respond will b late….coz I’m gona off my hp…..i nid to concentrate…..i cant give up…..my future depends on this….i WILL……I WILL Succeed!.......